Wallowing

In the earbuds;        Need to Breath        “Garden”

Deuteronomy 30:19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live (20 and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers….,

Good day,  It’s been a while since my pen has been held in my hand, I could call it “writer’s block”, but in all honesty…I write with the guidance of the holy spirit and I really don’t think he gets “writers block”. I think that, ok, I know that I have been wallowing a bit. Wallowing in some pain, at times both physical as well as emotional…yes, my choice of course (not the physical or emotional pain, but the wallowing in it)…and having knowledge and understanding that this was a total waste of time and emotions, but just the same I wallowed.

As of this writing, the wallowing season is done for now, I have had to “on purpose” choose to walk out of the wallow, get out of the muck. It was beginning to be a dark hole, an unlit pathway on this journey…where the sun was never shinning. And again, let me say…I had to choose, no one would/could choose this for me. Everyone has choices, we can sit and wallow or move out of that muck that can entrap us..and keep on our journey. For me, at first the wallowing was in self-pity, lets just say for show…to let the parties know I was hurt and in pain. The sad thing is the longer that you allow yourself to sit there in the pity, the deeper, darker and slower your pace is on your journey. God does not want us to be full of pity, to wallow in darkness…He gives us the way, He lights the way..He reaches his hand down in the muck and pulls us out. But He is a gentleman, its our choice to open our eyes to his lit path, to reach our hand up to grab his….our choice.

I chose remembrance; remembering that I am loved by the great “I AM”, the creator of the Universe, the only God…who gave his son to die for my/our sins..so I can always be perfect in the eyes of God. I choose to remember that! Choices, how we live, how we love. Choices that will yield positive or negative outcomes…still our choices, my choice.

Sometimes, life, people can hurt us..through the things they say or the things not said. Knowing who we are (speaking to the choir) in Christ, knowing where our worth and value come from…not people but Christ is the key. Because I can guarantee that people will disappoint but Christ never does. This being said..wallowing can come, being pitiful for pity’s sake comes, when it does….choose to walk out of it! Choose to allow the great comforter to well…comfort you. Choose Christ, choose power. As someone said once, “You can pitiful or powerful, but not both”(JM). Choose powerful.

ME

 

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About On the Vine

A child of the Most High, just on my journey with Him. Thoughts and observations from just me to you.
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